Finally "Breaking free and being ME"

         Breaking free and being ME has been birthed from 

it's previous name (Singing a New Song: there was another, which I had not known existed, with that name, prior to my claiming it for this message, so it has been deleted from my

history) and is now on a new mission.

         What are we breaking free of? Some would say outdated and antiquated belief and thought. Others perhaps, the mold that this World has accepted so naively. Breaking free...means to travel our own path. It is breaking free of "being like everyone else" and courageously traveling on our journey...

         Being ME. If ME stands for My Essence (I love acronyms, don't you?) then BEING MY ESSENCE makes much sense and it is worth breaking free from ANYTHING to get to...or at least, in my opinion.

          Why is this page, group and blog exist? Because it CAN. It is a dissenter's wish to defy the norm and reach for the possibility of greater being. I have struggled all my life and beg others to accept ME for as I am. I am not "hard" to accept; a bit formidable and quite strong in confidence and thought; yet for a woman in this day, so that enough makes it hard for a man, who is not as strong or thoughtful to respect and admire a woman who is courageous enough to be her FULL self. I had feared in relationship that I had "lost myself", I hadn't really, I understand that now but I had "melded" so to speak with my Love and it was very scary. I had not yet "found myself" and I was feeling that I was "losing ME". That was many years ago, since then, I realize that it was little more than "shadowboxing", fighting an invisible enemy, needing to "fight for myself" even when I was not being threatened. 

          So Breaking free and being ME came about very quickly one day as I was thinking about the evolution of this page, group and blog over the past 10 years and realized that it is MORE relevant in this form than in the last; though the last form seemed to serve my need to "find myself, heal from abuse and learn to dream again". 

           If you're here...welcome. You are not alone. Your journey is unique and you may find a few ideas and images to be of inspiration and even comfort to you as you journey along. Thanks for joining me...

A NEW Name...a NEW and "further along the path" message...

It just came to me one morning, a few days after I had just "revised" Singing a New Song's profile and Facebook cover page. I had been singing a NEW song and honestly, I think the "song" didn't feel NEW to me anymore; or perhaps, it was just time to keep walking on my healing path and seeing where I end up...Without any conscious thought, I got a flash of insight and heard 

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 "Breaking free and being ME". It felt right and I quickly wrote it down, scribbling it in longhand on a pad in front of me. I have certainly been on a healing journey; over the past several years, 

A failed love relationship; twice with having returned to my first love from University, just this past decade(which I went on to graduate with my Bachelor's of Science). Then two failed marriages were sandwiched in between this relationship and the latter one blessed me with a marvelous son who I've raised alone from age 10. Resigning from many years in corporate life, I chose to give it all up for my dream come true...when it turned into the BPD Nightmare and that is when I decided it was time to relocated with my son, again, this time to another state. I then had to face making a career change. I had to re-enter the "work force" and make a life and I realized that I could make it whatever I wanted it to be. 

It took a few years in our new residence before I finally settled into a Profession. I attained two licenses and I was just getting ready to embark on my own business of helping people when my song writing partner from the era of time after the 1st marriage and before the 2nd, (I was happily single and singing), called me about the music that we had written, recorded and performed so many years before. In short, in the past short 6 months; during this Pandemic, we have gotten our music online... We are looking at doing it again; writing and recording another 18 + songs and it has already been titled "Reawakening". I'm playing my music on my Celtic harp, singing and writing songs again!!! This is like my "life's blood", it is what makes me feel ALIVE.

So this brings me to the point of this post and WHY the name change came about NOW. Am I really "Breaking free and being ME?" To that, I answer a resounding yes. I heard that some things cannot be taught. And I have understood and realized for myself, that many things in life are "caught" so I was not surprised when this transformation and "breaking out" of the paradigm I had created with Singing a New Song allowed me more freedom to "be ME". 

I am a reader as well as a writer, singer, student and teacher. Many writings and books and poems have ornamented my path like rose petals leading to the bride's chambers. They have instrumentally and fundamentally shaken my world (so that like the windflowers, anemones; my roots are deep and the wind blows away the dead leaves off the flower). They have provided so much wisdom and have encouraged my wildness and haven't been afraid of the strength of my thought and will. I have found my "lair". Being born in August seems apropos. I have an inner peace and refuge. I love my solitude and give it up for no one. I have for so many years, made myself small (or quiet) for those who could "not endure me", I say with a laugh. (a thought describing my personage as intimidating or formidable). Maybe it's age or just maturity, but I don't feel that I need to "be smaller" than I am but I see that I have become more quiet, naturally.  I think part of my "bigness" and "loudness" was due to confirming my identity. My strengths. My self-worth. I am just ME now and it feels great.

So BREAKING FREE AND BEING ME just is; it is just that. If nothing else, it will be my opportunity and pleasure to share HOW I did it; through much meditation, introspection, education with a heart of love and eyes of compassion and hope.

If any of this resonates with you, I am THRILLED for you; you are going to experience what you may never even have been able to imagine, a transformation of YOUR LIFE.

Finding the REAL you

Singing a New Song: 
Finding yourself, healing from abuse and learning to dream again.

That's what this blog; Facebook page is all about; becoming the best YOU!!!! No matter what has happened TO you or within you. YOU deserve to heal, grow and enjoy your life.


Finding the REAL you...what motivates you???

When dreams come true

It's another lazy Sunday; a day for banana bread in the oven and a steaming cup of tea or coffee. It's still dark and the birds are having morning song. Apart from that, there is near silence. At only 6 am on Palm Sunday, I don't think I even hear a car through my slightly opened window, either along my street or a few streets away where there is a main thoroughfare. The CoVid-19 Pandemic is upon us. We are at home. We may only go out for groceries or a much needed time of walking barefoot upon the grassy patches in our backyards, a park or a run along the Greenway.  We are in North Carolina, not one of the hardest-hit states or places in the World. This pandemic is surreal. When did we ever think that we would be immobilized by an unseen enemy? When face masks and glove-wearing was the necessary norm?  But this is our reality now and in it, we are desperately trying to conjure up a deeper meaning and purpose for our lives...it is when a time like this is upon us, that I see the opportunity to turn to self-improvement and reconstruction of reality.