A NEW Name...a NEW and "further along the path" message...
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"Breaking free and being ME". It felt right and I quickly wrote it down, scribbling it in longhand on a pad in front of me. I have certainly been on a healing journey; over the past several years,
A failed love relationship; twice with having returned to my first love from University, just this past decade(which I went on to graduate with my Bachelor's of Science). Then two failed marriages were sandwiched in between this relationship and the latter one blessed me with a marvelous son who I've raised alone from age 10. Resigning from many years in corporate life, I chose to give it all up for my dream come true...when it turned into the BPD Nightmare and that is when I decided it was time to relocated with my son, again, this time to another state. I then had to face making a career change. I had to re-enter the "work force" and make a life and I realized that I could make it whatever I wanted it to be.
It took a few years in our new residence before I finally settled into a Profession. I attained two licenses and I was just getting ready to embark on my own business of helping people when my song writing partner from the era of time after the 1st marriage and before the 2nd, (I was happily single and singing), called me about the music that we had written, recorded and performed so many years before. In short, in the past short 6 months; during this Pandemic, we have gotten our music online... We are looking at doing it again; writing and recording another 18 + songs and it has already been titled "Reawakening". I'm playing my music on my Celtic harp, singing and writing songs again!!! This is like my "life's blood", it is what makes me feel ALIVE.
So this brings me to the point of this post and WHY the name change came about NOW. Am I really "Breaking free and being ME?" To that, I answer a resounding yes. I heard that some things cannot be taught. And I have understood and realized for myself, that many things in life are "caught" so I was not surprised when this transformation and "breaking out" of the paradigm I had created with Singing a New Song allowed me more freedom to "be ME".
I am a reader as well as a writer, singer, student and teacher. Many writings and books and poems have ornamented my path like rose petals leading to the bride's chambers. They have instrumentally and fundamentally shaken my world (so that like the windflowers, anemones; my roots are deep and the wind blows away the dead leaves off the flower). They have provided so much wisdom and have encouraged my wildness and haven't been afraid of the strength of my thought and will. I have found my "lair". Being born in August seems apropos. I have an inner peace and refuge. I love my solitude and give it up for no one. I have for so many years, made myself small (or quiet) for those who could "not endure me", I say with a laugh. (a thought describing my personage as intimidating or formidable). Maybe it's age or just maturity, but I don't feel that I need to "be smaller" than I am but I see that I have become more quiet, naturally. I think part of my "bigness" and "loudness" was due to confirming my identity. My strengths. My self-worth. I am just ME now and it feels great.
So BREAKING FREE AND BEING ME just is; it is just that. If nothing else, it will be my opportunity and pleasure to share HOW I did it; through much meditation, introspection, education with a heart of love and eyes of compassion and hope.
If any of this resonates with you, I am THRILLED for you; you are going to experience what you may never even have been able to imagine, a transformation of YOUR LIFE.
