This phrase came to my mind. As an abuse survivor and one who is still "finding me", healing from abuse and daring to DREAM again, it reminded me of the "lost power" of choosing with MY WILL so...
Today, I CHOOSE...
that is a powerful and validating statement even if it has no qualifier or description of WHAT I choose.
The mere act of choosing is the power and credibility of my WILL.
To CHOOSE all that I CHOOSE TO CHOOSE IS really living!!!!
I CHOOSE...to deliberately live today.
When we leave our lives up to chance, we are selling ourselves short of all that life has to offer us. We deserve SO MUCH BETTER than to "just have a chance" at life...we have a choice! We deserve to LIVE it.
I am SO tired of hearing excuses made for how other people behave, sometimes they even come out of my own mouth. So when I CHOOSE to NOT make excuses for those who don't want to make needed changes for themselves to me I realize that I am finally LIVING MY LIFE TO THE FULLEST. Any other way to live is NOT a choice that I will make any longer! An abuser's oppression saddens brings me to the truth that my abuser's "love" had been my delight. I went to the woods because I wished to live deliberately,
to front only the essential facts of life,
and see if I could learn what it had to teach, and not,
when I came to die, discover that I had not lived.
I did not wish to live what was not life, living is so dear;
nor did I wish to practice resignation, unless it was quite necessary.
I wanted to live deep and suck out all the marrow of life,
to live so sturdily and Spartan-like as to put to rout all that was not life,
to cut a broad swath and shave close,
to drive life into a corner, and reduce it to its lowest terms,
and, if it proved to be mean,
why then to get the whole and genuine meanness of it,
and publish its meanness to the world;
or if it were sublime, to know it by experience,
and be able to give a true account of it in my next excursion.
(Henry David Thoreau, Walden)
Today, I choose to CHOOSE to live deliberately. I will not live by the dictates or whims of others or in reaction to fear or intimidation.
I CHOOSE to be afraid in the midst of a decision that I am convinced that I must made and then DO IT ANY WAYS. I will BE bold even when I don't "feel" bold.
I CHOOSE to give myself the opportunity to make a mistake while risking the safety of knowing what could be the consequence of my behavior if it means that I could win more than lose.
I CHOOSE to forgive myself for past mistakes and forgive others for their abuse toward me...
I CHOOSE to "let go" of trying to control anyone else and learn to control the one person whom I can control...ME!
TODAY, I CHOOSE!!!
***Due to abuse have you had difficulty "allowing yourself to CHOOSE"
to live your life deliberately? You CAN choose to take your power BACK
and decide how YOU would like to live your life,
not under the hand or words of an abuser
but under the WILL of one who love you more than anyone else
(or should in my opinion)...
YOU!
